It is Sunday now here. It is also my weekend off of work. But because my last paycheck went to paying the rent I'm broke. Oh well. So I stayed home. Yesterday I took some sleeping pills and slept all day. When I woke up I'd take more sleeping pills. My boyfriend and I are at a trouble time now. Again he forgot my birthday. Did not send me a card. So I'm upset at him. This happend last year too. And I told him that even a simple card or letter would be a wonderful gift. But alas he did not send me anything. So now I don't want to take his calls.
I feel so old. In august I turned 44. I am still alone and unmarried. I sometimes feel that life has passed me by.
My ex boyfrieds birthday was last week. I supprised him by calling him and wishing him a happy birthday. I'm still inlove with him. I'll do anything I can for him. Because he is still my friend and since I have no family. All my friends are my family. I also chatted with him on yahoo. It was nice to talk and catch up on each others lifes. I made the biggest mistake of my life when I messed up our relationship. But I have learned and if I'm ever in a loving relationship like that again I do everything to keep it alive.
I feel that all relationships should start as friendships. Take the time to learn about each other. Each others dreams and fears. And work hard to keep any relationship alive. Both sides must work together to keep the love going.
I hope that God will watch over all of you. That He will watch over my friends who are my family. And that He will answer their prayers.
Peace
Dale
